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Well I had planned a bunch of blog post over the last few weeks, but something personal came up which has taken up some of my time.
If you’re a member of my Hypnosis Elite Newsletter than you already know this personal issue that has kept me away from the blog.
My Wife And I Loss A Great Friend
Recently, our family dog named Beawolf passed away without warning about a week or two ago and I have been dealing with the fallout of this situation.
For those of you interested in knowing I don’t have any kids, but I am married. Since we don’t have kids our dog Beawolf who was a Shetland sheepdog was like a child to my wife and to me for that fact. He has been with us for a while and his passing happened without any warning to us.
He was fine during the morning and fine when I came home for lunch a few days ago, but as my wife and I were leaving to go to work I noticed he didn’t walk me to the door as he usually does whenever I leave. I looked for him and noticed he was laying over near the wall, which wasn’t common for Beawolf.
How It All Went Downhill
I went over to check on him and noticed he was pretty limp and didn’t want to move for anything. I also noticed he was leaking stool and his body felt very cold. My wife noticed this with me and began to break down, cry and scream as I mentioned Beawolf is like family to us. I noticed he was still breathing, but it appeared as if he was struggling so of course I started to panic as well, but knew I had to move fast. I picked Beawolf up and with the help of my wife got him to the car as fast as I could and drove off as if I was traveling at the speed of warp 10.
After a long drive to the animal hospital I rushed him in and they went to work on him to try and figure out what was wrong. My wife wasn’t able to ride due to certain reasons so she got her father to bring her up to the hospital. The doctors didn’t know much at the time other than he was losing a lot of blood through his back end and he was very weak. They had mentioned his veins were also sealing up, whatever that means.
Eventually, they came to us and told us they believe his systems were shutting down. They had a theory which was something must be wrong with his spleen which is causing him to bleed out. They told us we had two options basically which were put him to sleep or attempt an operation to go in, find out the exact cause, repair it and go from there. The problem is that the vet didn’t believe he would be able to make it through the operation.
During all of this I’m crying, my wife is crying, but we were trying to keep our composure the best we could so we could make a proper decision. We first considered putting Beawolf to sleep so he wouldn’t suffer so we asked if we could see him before we make a decision.
Never Give Up
The doctors brought him in and he looked pretty weak still. They had him hooked up to an I.V. and some other stuff. We asked to be alone with him and spent time just letting know how much we loved him and cared for him. We petted him for a while and just spent time with him when we noticed a change in Beawolf. As we started petting him and talking to him he began to wag his tail and try to lift his head up and lick us. This was amazing to us because earlier he was very weak and could barely move. The doctors told us it was due to him having fluids put into him, but my wife and I knew different.
I had asked from a sign from god or an angel to help us through this tough time and help us make the right choice. It was than we knew or at least we believed he might have the strength to make it through the operation. The part that was killing my wife the most is that she was blaming herself. She had the idea in her mind that he got into something or other reasons, which we knew we’re not true. She really wanted to know what could cause our beloved pet to go from healthy to ill in a matter of moments.
The doctors informed us of the risk again and than if he didn’t make it through the operation he would not feel any discomfort. So we gave the go ahead praying Beawolf had the strength to fight. The doctors believed he would not even survive the entry cut or the gas to put him under during the operation. I talked with my wife some more and did what I could to be the strong husband and help her through this time, but no words I could come up were enough. The truth is that I was hurting inside as well.
A Fighter To The Very End
Eventually my wife has to leave for certain reasons, but I told her I would stay and keep everyone informed. As I work for myself I’m not bind by a boss or being stuck at a job in the traditional sense. Time seemed to go on forever and than eventually it happened. One of the doctors came in and asked me to sit down.
My beloved friend, companion and loyal pet Beawolf passed away.
The doctors told me he has amazed them in the operation because he made it through most of the operation, but they started to lose him right in the end when they we’re getting ready to start the corrective work. The cause of death was known though and it was due to a tumor that had been connected to his spleen and somehow broke off which caused his spleen to rip and him to begin bleeding out. The doctor said this was a pretty rare case and nothing we could have done to really catch it.
Beawolf always had his shots and was well taken care for and as we told the vet he never showed any warning signs. Still, in a way my wife has her prayer answered as beloved Shetland Sheepdog Beawolf lasted long enough as to provide the doctors the cause of his death. This was important to my wife because she didn’t have to keep blaming herself and she knew in some part that Beawolf was a fighter and didn’t want to give in and fought as long and as hard as he could for himself and us.
So in the end we have lost our friend, but we lose him knowing he knew how much we loved him and valued him as a member of our family.
My Readers Help My Wife Through A Tough Time
My wife was having a very hard time since his passing, but things have finally started to get better and I truly believe one of these reasons is because of ALL OF YOU.
A week or two ago I sent out an message to my mailing list/newsletter asking for the help of all my readers to surprise Temika with sometime of note or letter letting her know things would get better or personal stories of loss suffered by my readers and how they overcame the pain in time.
The response was AMAZING to say the least as I received over 1,000 different stories, letters, poems and notes from all of you addressed to my wife and some to me. My wife had no clue I was doing this so after I received the messages I put them together in a notebook for her and showed her and she just started crying. Good tears though because she was truly moved by all of them and yes, she read every single one.
She doesn’t really follow the Internet or understand how all of this stuff works, but she was truly grateful for all of your support. She has told me to tell all of you how special all of you are and how much you changed her life. She said after reading the notes and letters she released she isn’t alone in her loss and that time will heal the wounds.
I have been doing this blog for a little over a year now and I have many proud moments from blogging, but this one will always be the most special to me as it went pass blogger and readers and became friends helping friends.
A Finally Thank You To My Readers
Once again thank you for all of your help during these tough times and this just tells me that I made the right choice blogging and working to build relationships with my readers. As Hypnotists we help people with everyday problems and this shows you how powerful of a profession we are. All of you helped wife without every seeing her in person, which is the power of the Internet.
So thank you again and I look forward to reading your comments on this post and future post.
Joshua Houghton
Truly Grateful
Thu, Feb 26, 2009
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